riverside beach party... a family affair...

December 28, 2008...

fixing up ourselves and things to go swimming in the Riverside Beach at Trapiche, Oton.. its a family christmas party.. felt excitement... as we wait for the service to come, we got some shots first..

behind me were my baby Kristel Ann whose taking a dede while roaming around the house and Issa Joy behind her (she's always on Kristel's side... wherever the little on goes, she goes... she's the good comrade all the time.. I hope everthing would seem like that someday about 20 years from now.. having a good relationship with each other, not only a blood-connected relationship but also a best buddy relationship with all my relatives.. Well, Kristel is the only 'apo' currently and I know there will be a lot of cousins and second cousins she will have but for now I hope everything would be fine... even though she doesn't have a father beside her at least a lot of father figure is around her.. (her momma has lots of suitors..(*..*) hehehe but now is not the time yet... concentrate on priorities first) tatay is there, nanay is there, her lolos are there, everywhere whose been very supportive and her daddies are there also... so there are lots of people who loves me and my daughter and I cant even imagine one person gives a bad impression on my daughter... I kick him...! joke... its natural and I have to accept it..

Loraine, Joan, Nelisa, April Rose, Yolie, LOla, Liberty, pers and marites...

LOraine, ano yang ayaw mong ipakita sa cam?

LOraine: Joan bug-at ulo mo..grrr...

Nelisa: away kamo jan.. mapagwapa lang takun...

April: ako man mapagwapa, galing init, palipud lipud ta bala kay ne ne nelisa para di madugangan tan ta",,,))

Ne yols: pawala lang ko ah.. bisan init its ok basta may picture lang..hek hek hek.. galing tunto nga manok ay nagstock sa unto ko.. budlay bul on... di madara ka dila ko kag lips..hehehe...

LOla: ano ra picture? baw wara gid ko kaposing ba.. ti kado akun posisyon ay..

beng: ang init naman dito... buti nalng may malong ako.. at three fourths...

pers: nami rn ja guro akun posing ah.. hahahaha... gwapo rn.. with matching pamulsa pa.. wala lang ja sulod bay e lang style ko lang..

marites: baw naabay pa ko gale jan kara ka picture? ti gamayan lang makita hay.. wara ko kaready bah..

beng: pwede na ba pang calendar posing ko...???

loraine: wara pa ko gani kapose pay.. ginshot rn ni

jonabeth.. dayaon.!neneyole: sigkadako kami ta nelisa man???? daw nagdako ko ja haw? indi..no no no no!!!! im getting bigger and bigger,.,.

joan: peace tayo... daw nasubrahan haw?

nelisa: HMmm.. yehey,, daw gamay ko lantawon ja..

april: beng imo lang pang calendar haw? pang whisky akon kaja.. hahaha..

jenny: akon man pang beer lang galing...
maring: oist dali lang jhen daw mahulog ko.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

back to 'dawog'

DAWOG--- the place where I was born and began to make my dreams with my friends... I have lots of friends there but few can be trusted..hahahahaha....(*>*)...

How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.

All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.--- this is the place where I want to go.. where I want to shout as loud as I can.. where I can cry freely in times of sadness and in times of loneliness..

When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter.

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.

A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

my fave song..u'v made me stronger

You’ve Made Me Stronger Music Code

reasons for everything...

I was seventeen when I got lost on my way to good and organized life. I was a very simple teen with lots of ambitions, Im ambitious.. of course.. who among us doesn't vhave ambitions?Nobody I think.. I want to be a business woman.. a business oriented person with creative thinking and openminded to profitable ventures... that's what I want to be.

I want to gain stuffs that I never had when I was innocentlly young. When I was in elementary, I received lots of recognitions in school for I was really a good and participative student to all the activities the school would handle.. Popularity! That's what I mean.. Being popular.. almost all students knows me.. If ever I'm walking towards home, guys are staring at me. Saying Hi.. hello... Can I bring you home? Those are the words I always heard from them... Can I borrow your 30 minutes? Let's just talk... Then we'll talk... friendly talking.. Im a very accommodating person.. even if I don't know you, If you approached me and talk to me, then I'll talk to you respectively..I'll show you that I'm not neglecting you.. Thaty's how I would describe myself when facing suitors... But it didn't worked out well coz I transfered to my grandma's place and continued my studies there...

When I lived to my grandma's... I felt that everybody was caring for me... I can't explain it.. I have two crushes but I won't give names. Someone approached me and asking to go out... stuffs like that.. we always go to school together. And later on,. without my notice.. I just fell for him also even though I don't have the feeling for him at first.. I really can't remember detaiuledly but something just happened between the two of us and after that... he is kinda so aloof and is not texting me.. No hi No hello... It means that everything just faded... just disappered........... I'm not an idiot!!! I'm not deaf and I have feelings so... that's the sign.. It's over between the two of us.. I got depressed... I'm not thinking of my school stuffs intently anymore.. I'm not concentrating to school but I was still attending classes even though my mind is always flying.. thinking of the biggest mistake I've made.. I trusted him yet he left me, dumb me all alone... I never realised I was raising a life inside me coz I was so busy with school.. with my emotions, depressions, peers... I always attend parties holded by my classmates and school buddies... 'til I git sick... I stopped going to school for a week.. I got a UTI and I can't move my body.. I'm always vomiting whenever I finished my meals.. I always feel migraine... I'm always starving but I thought it's all the effect of my sickness.. effect of stress and depressions and UTI.... I never informed anybody from my family that I'm suffering from heartache.. I always went home late and they would always think that Im dating... That's whats on their minds but I never attempted to straighthen things out.. I just let them think what they wanted to... I don't want anybody to feel pity for me.. Ayoko na kinakaawaan ako!

My uncles and aunts and mom and dad and brother and cousins are always there for me while I was going through that sickness... Then they decided to bring me to a specialist coz my fever was so high and Im trembling... Im so cold that I can't think.. I was just staring at the ceiling evertime they ask me if there is something wrong... Im not talking to them either.. Im not responding to their questions.. I was just thinking of him and the pains he left to me...!!!

I was really really shocked of the result.. "do you ever know that you're pregnant?" the specialist said when I got an ultrasound...

Im with my mom and my cousin... Oh my GOD!!! I never realized that for the past 3 months... that's the time I remembered that Im not having my period for 3 months already.. so that's it.. the reason for everything.. the reason for my sickness... I saw my mom and cousin crying... my mom asked me why? but I never responded.. I know my mistake and there's no better explaination to what I did... There's no acceptable and considerate reason for what I have done.. Time run so fast and my uncles knew about it.. they are not talking to me, my dad was not talking to me, my cousins are not talking to me.. everybody was not talking to me.. I felt very empty... I thought I was a total stranger to them.. I always go to my room and spent all my daily time there.. staring at the mirror crying and talking to myself like a fool.. a total fool... I was just thinking of the past.. carrying grudges to the person who lead me to a miserable and wrong path. I was feeling regret.... regret regret regret.....

My dad would not talk to me personally.. we are just talking via cellphone.. he's afraid to talk to me personally because he doesn't want to end it up hurting me and himself... my mom said that he's not eating well.. he's not sleeping well... so mom told me that when something happen to dad, it'll be my fault.. coz I've hurted him sooo much... I got this feeling that I wanna die.. I tried not to eat for two days, ignoring the life inside me.. I tried to stare at the knife and tried to let it touch my womb.. I want to kill myself.. I though at that time that It's better that I'll die killing myself that killing my own father... But my aunt Lida gave me advices but Im deaf.. I can't hear anything... I just cried and cried and cried every night for the first 6 months of my pregnancy.. My uncles are staring at me sharply, I'll run through my room and started to cry again....

heartsick for a reason

Everything has a purpose.. and I do believe.. I've been hurted for once in my life and the pain covered my whole heart for almost a year.. I never listened to other people, even to my parents, aunts, uncles, friends.. I just listened to my heart.. But I was really wrong.. I realized that friends and family are made to make you a better person.. Would you agree with my statement? Well I don't care.. it's my own statement.. you can't ammend it though..haha!!!!

"A friend is one who walks in when others walk out."

Is this true? What do you think with this quote?
Soothing words from friends, heal broken hearts and mend relationships.

Before the heartbreaking moments was done, I was too confident of myself.. believing in my worth.. I thought nobody can teach me.. nobody can ever change myself and my life.. It's me.. It's me.. I believe in myself... I have lots of friends... They are keeping my company.. Asking for my suggestions in all matters including love.. Of course with much a do.. I am very open and quick on giving my responses.. I give recommendations and comments about their situations even though I didn't encounter such situations, I just read it through my mind and heard it from others.. But I was really wrong... It's better to encounter and experience problems rather than reading or listening from others stories.

From the experiences that I have.. I've learned a lot.. I've learned that God gave me this life and gave me hard situations... for me to enjoy it and became a true person... For me to become a whole... To understand situations.. To admit own mistakes and laugh on it on my own..

Mistakes? hmmm... I've done zillions of mistakes in my entire life.. Zillions can't be counted so I can't count my mistakes and I've already made my biggest mistake.. At first I felt regret on what I have done but soon I realized that God let me have that mistake for me to learn from it and for me to use that experience for the future...

Wika mo, Wikang Filipino, Wika ng Mundo, Mahalaga

Ito yung pyesa na ginawa ko para sa talumpati... May paligsahan sa eskwelahan at ako ang napili para sa patimpalak dahil wala kami representative... Inihahandog para sa lahat ng Pilipino....

Sa ating kagalang-galang na mga inampalan, guro, mga panauhin, kapwa ko mag-aaral, magandang hapon po sa inyong lahat!

Gaano nga ba kahalaga ang wika ng isang bansa?

Wikang Filipino, ang wika mo, wika ko, wika nating lahat... Wikang nagbubuklod sa ating mga Pilipino. Dumanak ang dugo at buhay ang itinaya upang tayo ay magkaroon ng wikang sariling atin. Kung ito ay ipinaglaban at pinangalagaan ng ating mga ninuno ay gayon din ang dapat nating gawin. Mahalaga ang sarili nating wika, ito ay isang kayamanang ating paghahawakan panghabang-buhay.

Saan ka nga ba nakakita ng isang napakaliit na bansa subalit mayroong napakaraming klase ng wika? Mapa- Tagalog man, Cebuano, Ilonggo, Pangasenense, Waray o Bikolano... anuman ang dayalekto na binibigkas mo, Wikang Filipino parin kung ituring ito!

Filipino ang wika na ginagamit sa buong bansa sa komunikasyon ng mga katutubong lipunan. Tulad ng ibang wika, ang Wikang Filipino ay palaging nagbabago sa pamamagitan ng pagsasalin-salin ng mga salita galing sa mga katutubo at dayuhang salita para sa iba't ibang sitwasyon. Hitik sa pahiwatig at liguyang pangungusap ng mga Pilipino dahil tayo ay nagmumula sa isang kulturang may mataas ng uri ng pagbabahaginan ng kahulugan. Kumpara sa mga taga-Kanluran na itinuturing na may mababang konteksto ng kulturang may mababang antas ng pagbabahaginan ng kahulugan. Ginagamit ng mga Pilipino ang konsepto ng pakikipagkapwa-- na itinuturing ang kausap bilang bahagi ng sarili-- na mauugat sa isang kulturang may mataas na pagpapahalaga sa ugnayan ng pamayanan.

Mahalaga rin sa mga Pilipino ang Wikang Filipinong ginalakhan. Halimbawa nito ay ang nagpupuyos na galit na reaksyon ng mga Pilipino dahil sa panlalait at pagmemenos ng mga dayuhan sa ating lahi at pagkatao- na idinulot sa ating mga Pilipinong doktor sa isang serye sa telebisyon sa NBC na The Desperate Housewives. Ganito rin ang panggagalaiti na nadama natin ng minsang mabalitaan natin noon na ang salitang 'Filipina' diumano ay binigyang kahulugang 'Katulong' sa isang diksyunaryong Ingles. Subalit sa isang banda, karaniwan sa ating mga kababayan, sinadya man nila o hindi ay hindi maiiwasang makapagkomento ng masakit at hindi maganda para sa kapwa kababayan nila. Halimbawa nito ay ang isang dayalogo ni Gloria Diaz sa Sakal, Sakali, Saklolo kung saan sinabi nya kay Judy Ann Santos na "Bakit mo pinalaking bisaya ang aking Apo?" ito ay nagpapakita ng isang masakit na salita para sa kapwa kababayang Pilipino.

Dapat ay matuto tayong lahat na maging maingat sa ating mga iniisip at sinasalita upang mapanatili ang respeto sa isa't isa. Ang Wikang Filipino ay isang pamantayan ng pagiging isang Pilipino.

Hindi mabalaho sa dusa ng pang-aalipusta ang panitikang Tagalog at Wikang Filipino dahil patuloy ang pintig nito, may bagyo man, rilim o gyera sa Pilipinas. Marahil ay hindi kasing lantad ang panitikang Tagalog at Wikang Filipino sa panitikang Ingles. Yamang Ingles ang wika ng kapangyarihan sa pamahalaan, edukasyon at negosyo sa bansa. Gayunpaman, patuloy pa rin ang pag-angat ng Wikang Filipino at panitikang Tagalog sa iba't ibang larangan bukod sa panitikan.

Kapag nasa ibang bansa naman ang isang Pilipino ay hindi maiiwasang gamitin ang lengguwaheng ginalakhan. Maging sa trabaho, kapag nagkikita-kita ang mga Pilipino, sa unang kita palang ay ang salita "kumusta na" agad ang unang sambit sa isa't isa. Naipapakita lamang na mahalaga parin ang Wikang Filipino sa mga Pinoy saang sulok man sila ng mundo. Kaya kabayan, saan kaman dalhin ng iyong kapalaran, sabi nga ng isang kanta "Ang hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling wika ay higit pa ang amoy sa malansang isda".

Sino pa ba ang dapat magmahal at magpahalaga sa Wikang Pambansa?

Sino pa ba ang dapat magpa-unlad nito?

Tayong mga Pilipino mismo.... pag-isipan nyo!!!

Sa uulitin, magandang hapon sa inyong lahat....

simply being me

Hi...

Im Yolie Ngalongalay Sendin, Single... I'm turning 19 this coming September 17, 2008

Y- youthful

O- outspoken

L- light

I- innovative

E- energetic

S- superb

E- enchanting

N- nice

D- dangerous

I- intelligent

N- nutritional

Those are the words that best describes me according to the net. For me, I'm just a simple human being who grew up in this world meaningfully and wonderfully. I'm so thankful to my parents that they raised me up the way I am right now.. Maybe there are instances that I passed through the wrong path but still I'm proud of it.. I have no regrets on choosing this path....

Im a Single Parent... Other people wouldn't agree or believe in me when I share my life stories so I just kept quite and just go on with my life.. I don't care if they won't believe me.. as long as I'm living for good, happy and contented...

They think.. I'm just a responsible lad and is matured enough for my age for they say I know how to handle different circumstances, and they say I know how to act or be with other people in different races.. Well.. it's also because of my experiences.. I was a single daughter of my parents and I grew up responsible.. with my brother, Norlan.. we tend to be independent to our parents except financially of course...

I was born in Barangay Dawog, Miag-ao, Iloilo.. a developing barangay at Miag-ao... early in the morning of september 17, 1989.

19 years ago, Norberto (bert) left for Oton with his 2 sons (norlan and oliver) to visit his mom and dad,leaving Yolanda (olec) at the barrio (dawog). When he left that early morning, Yolanda fetch water to the nearest well from the house... with the small pail of water she walked through the house... After a few minutes, she went back to the well to fetch again.. as she pulled the pail to go home, she suddenly felt pain and cramps from her belly and her back. She called for her mom (esang) and brother (maloy) for help.. the two hurriedly helped her and bring her home... She is on the process of gving birth so.. Maloy hurriedly went to the barrio midwife (alice) to ask for help.

After a few minutes.. Maloy and Alice are walking towards the house and as they step up the ladder they heard a very loud cry of a baby... Alice just cut off the cord for I was already out of my mom's womb when she arrived...

Others said that Im Norielle...

Yanny by the others....

But my Dad... named my Yolie... after my mom's name Yolanda...

After 10 months..

my brother oliver passed away... so we are two kids left... norlan and me..

After 2 years........

my whole family transferred in Cebu...

I spent my elementary and first year high school there...

I transferred again to Miag-ao NAtional High School when I was second year in high school 'til I graduated...

I enrolled in Southern Iloilo Polytechnic College- WVCST Miag-ao Campus as a Bachelor of Science in Hotel and Restaurant Technology for only one semester because after that semester.. I transferred again In the main Campus at La Paz on the second semester taking the same course....

After that... I went through a wrong path and stopped studying for a year...

Then... at June 2008.. I enrolled at St. Anne College of Iloilo as Bachelor of Science in Business Administration...

And that's what I am now.... Still studying and enjoying my life as a teen single mom and as a student....